A Mother's Dance

Do you just feel like the baddest person in the world when you let ones you love hurt them self?
Last night I was holding Ezra, decided I'd go run his bath, so I put him on our bed next to his dad who had the laptop on the bed also. I sat him up, turned away to walk out the door then heard "thump"!
Ezra had leaned over to go to his dad and had hit his head on the laptop. He let out a big scream and I quickly grabbed him and tried to console him but he was just too sore. I felt so bad! I gave him to Daniel and went to run his bath anyway and by the time I got back Ezra was laughing again. Thank God!!
But that is only the start of our hardknock night. I think he must have had a bit of a headache from his bump and that mixed with his teething made double pain!
He woke up at about 10pm, I went in and tried to put him to sleep again but he wouldn't go straight back to sleep like he normally would. Daniel and me were still awake so I bought him in our room for some cuddles and he went back to sleep. After about an hour I took him back into his bed and went to sleep myself. At 3.30am, he was up again, crying. I went in, tried to put him back to sleep, had to pick him up and then went for a little walk around the house, dancing around because I needed to go toilet. He went back to sleep, so I put him in his cot and went to the toilet, and while I was in there he started crying then screaming. So I quickly finished up, ran to his room and tried to pat him back to sleep like I normally would...to no avail.........
It was about 3.45am by then. Daniel walked in and I was starting to get angry, so I walked out of the room and went to bed while Daniel tried to put Ezra back to sleep.
A while later, Daniel walked in with Ezra as he just wasn't going back to sleep. So we decided we'd watch a movie, and during that, I gave him a feed, and he finally went to sleep. Thank you God. It was 5am by then.
Daniel and me went to sleep as well.......6am, Ezra is awake again. What the!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Grrrr....I was such a grump by then. But being the good mummy that I am, I got up and played with him, while Daniel slept. Daniel even tried to tell us to be quiet, I don't think so!! I'm not being quiet so you can sleep! Ha! You can wake up too, thank you very much. (Lucky it was Saturday morning, so he didn't have work)